Aisling and I looked into some numerology today, and it was absolutely beautiful how accurate it all was. Being in love is a wonderful thing. Don’t let anyone tell you otherwise.
We set the date to clean our crystals for the full moon on the 6th. I can’t tell you how excited I am for that. To be working with crystals feels like home.
With her and the magick. I’m closer to Shiri than I’ve ever been in this life.
(Though I’m sure that’s how it’s been in every life.)
this heat at night has been absolutely murderous and is encouraging my interests in ‘clad rituals too much. my herbs need to be watered ten fold. sensitive magick problems, i suppose. my white roses are still opened and lovely though. i’d do anything for cloaks, cool grass, ears, and her hand right now.
i’m sitting right now going home to my family and my aisling. my faladar. the clouds. the trees. the grass. the wind. they are of us. i’m happy. i’m truly happy.
Full body pains on top of aches for ears and forests that aren’t here. My body’s burning up, and the humans hurt.
Headache all day got in the way of my energies. Smoked. Sang. Paint. Wrote. Felt the ground underneath me.
Cormamin lindua ele lle. Lle naa vanima.
I’m laying in the grass right by water. I look around and see lights in living rooms. This is where I am. This is who am I am. Under an almost full moon. Fresh air. Grass beneath. I’ll throw this phone aside and after I close. These human things. The aren’t for me. My home is the soil. All that’s missing is you, my Aisling. Then I am complete.
when my dress touches the grass. barefeet dig in. it’s only for a moment. only for a cigarette. i want to spend forever there. in the real. energies. energies. all around. feed in through my sense. i see it all. i wanna go home.
soul shine into the mirror. i catch my ears. stand up straighter.
“you were born with it in you.”
it was so strong the last time we were together. i can only imagine the brighter it will be as we grow. i love you.
reading more and more about the properties of different crystals. i’m so fascinated. making a list of ones i need to get first. makes me way excited.
a film and tea date planned once again tonight. what a surprise! i would not have it any other way.
the abuse of the term of otherkin.
i tag all my post under it, but i’m getting to the point where i don’t want to associate with it at all. to be completely frank, it’s ridiculous reading these post of some of the people who claim the term. i don’t want to be apart of that.
so i guess this is to say, i won’t be using it much. i’ll still tag my post in it for the sake of newcomers finding there way really, but yeah, i’m just simply an tulari elf. (ha, simple..).
i embrace my culture with my whole being. i love it. every bit. the more i grow in it, the stronger and happier and healthier i am.
tonight’s going to be another night of tea and art and research with my love followed by a favorite film. it’ll be a weekend dedicated to looking into herbs and crystals and such as well as the continued desperate job search so i can afford those thing. the job recipients in my inbox are depressing. humans. ugh.